Linking you to resources and support in the lung cancer community!
I am so tired of being a caregiver. And I have extreme guilt about it.
My Dad passed away almost 4 years ago from heart disease, Parkinson's and colon cancer. I took him to his Dr appointments, helped with keeping finances straight and a whole lot of other things. My Mom was there for the everyday things, but I needed to be her support. During this time my 21 year old daughter had a recurrence of seizures from a birth defect and was hospitalized for several weeks after surgery and then spent some time in a mental care facility due to brain injury. After Dad passed, Mom's dementia got worse and worse. I became her sole caregiver with her fighting me all the way. She was taken advantage of by a neighbor and conned out of $30,000. This 'person' also brainwashed Mom into thinking that I was the devil. Mom passed away in April of this year. As I am grieving, I am trying to get all of the estate stuff taken care of. I have an older sister and 2 brothers that all tell me that I am doing a wonderful job, and they can't help me because of either inability to cope with life or living out of state. They really appreciate all I am doing and offered me extra money from the estate. Big Deal!
Now I am caregiver for my husband, who was diagosed in September with stage 4 NSCLC. He also has severe vascular disease and has had to have a toe amputated. I love my husband very much and would do anything for him. I am scared of what the future holds in the next year. I see his pain and exhaustion and wish that I could make him feel better. I spend most of the day when I am working thinking about lung cancer.
Thanks for letting me vent.